Sunday, 26 April 2015

A Song for September.


I've never been good at singing, sports, or living my life within boxes. I like to draw outside the lines, drive too fast, and I'm addicted to that feeling of uncertainty. It's good to know your talents in this life. I've refined mine over the years. I generally know what people think before they do. I see the world without time, an ability to seize tomorrow by realizing it today. It's often a painful realization that what's to come is before you, but it also gives you an opportunity to change things.

Why have I chosen to write this post after being silent for almost eight months abroad? Because Summer is before me. Because September, when my school year ends, means that this story, this tale of almost six years of clawing my way out of normality is coming to an end. What I know is this, these are the last moments of a life that includes countless characters, both heroes and villains. A story that has involve loss, love, and sacrifice. A story that I've dragged everyone in my life into. So I owe it to everyone to make this count. To do the things that are necessary to make this experience genuine and authentic. So today, I'm going to make a commitment.  I'm throwing myself into the uncertainty. No more calculations, no more trying to make everyone happy. I can't make everyone love me, I can only be true to myself. I can't drag those people along who are unwilling to walk this journey together with me.

So today, I begin my descent in these final minutes to midnight. This is the time where we see what were made of as human beings, as gladiators of the world.  I'm not sure who will be standing next to me in September, but I truly hope each and everyone one of you are there. The world is changing, and I've decided to change with it. That's my talent, and I'm going to embrace it.

NOSH! - The International Cookbook